Fall : for what?

Alright, alright. So I didn't write yesterday...But I wrote two entries the day before, so technically I covered myself for that day. So HA! Not sure why i just did that.. Anyway...So today I'm back on course and writing about fall. ( Vikky may shoot me for that sentence) Fall. Leaves dotting the concrete, wafting on the breath of the chilled wind. Cocoa and a book in front of the fire, while snuggled under a cozy blanket in a overstuffed chair. Thats what many people think if as fall. For me well at the moment all it says is that I will soon be unemployed....I have worked the same job in between school since i was a senior in high school. I got my first job at 14 and had a summer job for all the rest of the years till now. This time though I'm staring at finding nothing for the fall and on. Still praying hard about this one, but I am actually feeling nervous, petrified,and disheartened that it may happen. Many people would jump at the chance to stay home and leech off their parents. Some say that it is ok for a short time to stay home and figure things out. But to me its like pointing a gun at my head and saying its okay to pull the trigger. I would go insane. I need people. I need to interact and work. Who knows what will happen this fall.....